I've told so many stories about my past. The older I get, and the more work I do, I realize so many of my stories were my perception. It's not that someone meant for me to feel bad or put down. But through my filter of life, and my personality, that's how I took it.
Complicating this has been a lifelong struggle with feeling confident... that I can trust myself, know myself. If I'm not feeling confident and self-aware, it's even easier to be the victim/martyr in my story!
I played that role a long time. Occasionally now it still pops up... but, I catch this pattern quickly and put effort into what I want to create... instead of taking a passive, resigned role.
This past weekend, I was super blessed to hear Lena Kikka, a Charlotte native now living in Germany, talk at Pachyderm Music Lab. Her topic "Old Girl in a Band" shared the story of how anxiety and illness kept her away from a music career until after age 35. My new friend (thanks Marie Forleo B-School) Krystle Baller invited me.
Even though I felt a little anxiety about meeting new people, I made myself go. And through Lena's sharing, I learned a fabulous practice I want to incorporate in my life and share!...